IN LOVE… with a little boy I have never met.
His face, so sweet and round. Torture to know that he cannot be mine.
Seamus … a little boy in an orphanage in Eastern Europe.
He is one of the many faces on Reece’s Rainbow waiting for their forever families. Even though I feel like we are his forever family. My girls are on board; Santiago would do this in a heartbeat if we could. But we don’t have a homestudy (or the money for the agency fees) nor the money to get one started at this veary moment.
If I did, I PROMISE we would get started on the process. I know in my heart after the initial process, everything would begin to fall into place.
It shatters me that I cannot do anything for Seamus.
HE IS PERFECT for us. He is a month older than Ethan. They would be the bestest of friends and the bestest of brothers.
I want to sing Itsy Bitsy Spicer to him, the way I do to Ethan. I want to kiss him goodnight. Give him bubble baths to splash in. I want to sit him across from Ethan on their wagon and pull them down the street. I want to teach him to wave and give kisses, the way Ethan does…. I just want to be his mom.
From here, all I can do is pray. I pray that God continues to bless us in our finances, to get ourselves out of much debt as possible and able to save up for our adoption journey. As much as I want this little boy, I pray that he has a forever family by the time we are all straight. I pray that at that time another beautiful little boy will be waiting for us.